luella

Hi Everyone,

I packed everything but the kitchen sink to go for a visit with my daughters.  I was just going out the door, when my sister called and said that my brother had been life flighted to the hospital.  What a shock.

Yesterday at 5:30 PM he was mowing the lawn and the tractor tipped over, and pinned him under it.  He was in an isolated area, but he was lucky that he was able to use his cell phone to call 911.  The police came, and lifted the tractor, and he slid out from underneath.  He broke both bones in each side of his pelvis, and his hip.  Right now he is in a lot of pain, and they are medicating him.

Today was a really busy day for he and his wife, so I decided to go see him tomorrow morning, and then go visit with my daughters.

Take care everyone.

                                                                                                                  Luella

Hi Everyone,

I went to my daughters’ boyfriends birthday party yesterday.  I made six  pounds of chicken breasts, which I marinated overnight with teriaki marinade.  I put a can of broth in a roasting pan, and cooked it for two and a half hours, and then I tested it with a meat thermometer to make sure it was done. 

Everyone liked it, and it was skinless, boneless, and tender.  I brought fried chicken from the store in case someone didn’t want the teriaki. 

I am going away for a few days, but will try to come back and keep a better journal.  Right now keeping a journal seems trivial compared to just trying to get through the day.  I have exercised almost everyday.  Sometimes I really don’t feel like it, but I get my coffee, the phone, and I get on the exercise bike and go.  Sometimes I go slow, and sometimes a little faster, but I at least am moving.  I know it is helping me even though I don’t feel like it. 

I have been eating fairly well.  I keep healthy food here, and sometimes when I go to the senior citizen center to eat I look at the food, and jokingly think they are trying to rush us along.  Today they had hamburger with white buns, and potato soup, and whole milk.  I mainly go just to see someone during the day.  My husband used to go with me, and we would get a menu that was for the month, and we would call the menu the warning sheet. 

I hope all of you are doing well and keeping healthy!

Take care.

                                                                                                              Luella

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Hi Everyone,

I still have some papers to go through that my daughter dragged out for me.  I got a lot out of the way, and am continuing on with the shredding.  A lot of the papers I take to the recycle bin, and the books to the Goodwill.

I would be further along with the clearing out process if I didn’t go to see my grandsons games.  His team is still winning, so he is in the playoffs. 

I still am feeling pretty lost, but I am thinking of getting a puppy.  Getting a puppy is contingent on the mother dog having a female puppy.  The puppy is promised to me already, and is due August 9th, and probably won’t be ready to go until later in September. 

The puppys’ mother is six pounds, and the father is 20 pounds.  I bought a little bunny rocker, that is for toddlers for the puppy to sleep in.  The rocker is really furry, and I thought it would make a good bed.  I got a little red fleece blanket to put over the pup to keep it warm. 

Meantime my daughter is going to have a baby soon, and I am supposed to stay with her for a month.  My other daughter offered to “puppy sit” for me if the puppy comes at the same time that I am helping my daughter.   I want the puppy to bond with everyone so it will be friendly. 

I am continuing to watch my food intake, and exercise almost everyday.  I have a little bit of a hard time journaling, because I want to keep my journaling upbeat. 

I hope all of you are well, and reaching your goals.  I am about eight pounds from my mini-goal.  I have to tell you that I really do feel much better physically now, than when I first started.

Take care everyone.

                                                                                                                         Luella

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Hi Everyone,

Today it rained so I pulled the cars out  in the rain, and washed them, and let them get rinsed in the rain.  Washing the cars took two hours to completely wash, and dry them.  I still have the insides to do, but will do them tomorrow.

I may sell one, and I need to get it looking good. 

Tomorrow I am going to get twenty little houses that go with a model train layout.  I have four train sets, but no little houses.  The model houses are being given away on freecycle.  I have seven grandsons, and three granddaughters that will love them.  At least some of them may. 

My daughter and two grandsons went back to Virginia today.  I really enjoyed having them here.  I gave my livingroom furniture to my daughters, and I bought a rocker recliner that I have in one corner of the livingroom, and the exercise bike is in the other corner. 

My daughters like the furniture, and I like the change.  

I need smaller clothes, so I decided to help myself get motivated to get them by clearing out the bigger sizes, and get replacement clothes for each item I get rid of.  I really don’t feel like shopping, but I do feel like getting rid of the bigger sizes, which are hanging on me.  I had gotten the clothes ready to give away, but when my husband passed away I ended up wearing them simply because I needed something to wear, and hadn’t gone shopping yet.  I have started to get some smaller sizes little by little; mostly little.  lol 

Tomorrow I will go through more things that made their way out of my “den”  lol

I hope all of you are well.  Take care.

                                                                                                          Luella

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Hi Everyone,

My daughter from Virginia, and my two grandsons have been visiting this week.  We have been going to family events, which include a play which one grandson was in, and a ballgame for another grandson. 

My daughter and I tackled my “den”.  Actually it is a room which we hide everything in from around the house when we are cleaning; we laughingly call it my den.  My daughter dragged everything out of there, and I had to work on the boxes of things that were in it so I could simply walk to my rubbish can.  I shredded old papers, and checks for hours.  I am planning on painting, and refurnishing the den, and making it a computer room.  I bought a beautiful lime green paint that I think will really brighten it up in there. 

Each day I am incredibly sad, and missing my husband.  I have grieved over the loss of many of my family, but this is the worst.  This time I find that the exercise in the morning is a factor in the grieving process that is helping tremendously.  When I lost my sister two years ago my metabolism felt like it was almost stopped, and I was feeling physically completely drained.  Although I am suffering a worse loss now; I feel that the exercise, and also the diet is helping me get through this better physically.

I met my husband when I was seventeen, and we were together until May 30th, 2007, when he had his fatal accident.  Losing him is like having an amputation, and part of me is gone.  Everyday I saw him , and thought that I always would the rest of my life.  What a gift someone gives you, when they give you themselves for life. 

I hope all of you are okay.  Take care.

                                                                                                             Luella

Hi Everyone,

Today was a quiet day for me.  I finished one important paper that I needed to get done, and it took me a couple of hours.  The paper was simple, but at this point nothing seems simple.  I know I am intelligent, but I find myself second guessing even the simplest things.

I have completed six years of college, and filling out simple papers feels like a big deal. 

Today was really better after I forced myself to do my paper work. 

My daughter and grandsons are coming tomorrow instead of today. 

Goodnight everyone, take care of yourselves!

                                                                                                               Luella

Hi Everyone,

My daughter and granddaughter were visiting for a few days.  I have been exercising on my bike quite a bit, and we walked also. 

Yesterday my daughter-in-law took all of us to dinner, and it was very nice.  I picked a special, and the waiter made sure that my food was low cholesterol.  I measured a cup out from the leftovers today, and had it for lunch. I was thinking a lot of the diet foods are simply just measured, and I thought, “I can do that.” This morning I got up and made coffee, and did my exercise on the bike. One of my daughters ususally call me when I am on the exercise bike, and the time flies. 

I still am having trouble believing that my husband is gone for good.  Each day we got up, and did our routines.  The diet and exercise are helping me, as well as making myself keep a good schedule of sleep.  I am far from being in a happy state of mind, but being healthy is helping me cope much better.  I need to be healthy in order to be able to help my daughter that is waiting for a transplant, and my daughter that is going to have a baby. 

According to my daughters recent sonogram the baby is two pounds.  I saw an earlier sonogram when the baby was one pound, and it was amazing. 

My daughter from Virginia is coming tomorrow with my two grandsons for a few days.  The visits from all of my children, and grandchildren are really helping me through this time. 

I have been going to the graveyard to say hi to my husband, and today I cleared some stones, sticks, and glass from the top of the grave.  They planted grass seed, but it hasn’t started to come up yet. 

Hope all of you are well; take care.

                                                                                                                       Luella

Hi Everyone,

My sons’ birthday is soon, and so I picked up a Steeler hat and shirt for him.  I was invited to my other son’s house today, where we had a cake for the son who is going to have a birthday soon.

I am blessed with the love of my children, and grandchildren, and their spouses.  I always knew that I raised a loving family, and now I am feeling like I am getting all the love back.  When you give your love day after day to your little ones it is amazing how good it feels when that love is returned to you when they are adults.  I never needed them more, and they are so wonderful. 

One of my sons wants to drive the RV tomorrow, and I agreed.  Neither of us has ever driven it.  He said I know nothing about the RV, and I said, “We’ll read the manual together”.  We want to take it for a visit to his wife’s sister’s place.  I think we can do it.

I really miss my husband, and it feels so sad to be with our children without him. 

Take care of yourselves buddies, and may all of you have your dreams come true.

                                                                                                                                     Luella

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